Who live our lives under Milk Wood,
And Thou, I know, wilt be the first
To see our best side, not our worst.
How much do you berate yourself for past indiscretions?
Not at all?
I have a great deal of trouble trying to reconcile myself with mistakes that I have made. For a long time, I have been the ‘scape goat’ in my family. I have always admitted to my mental health issues and often apologise for what I have done wrong, but
(and it’s a big BUT)
there are mistakes that I have NOT apologised for, and there are situations where the anguish felt by others had nothing to do with with me – even though I was perceived as the instigator/wrong-doer.
And the accumulated guilt from all those years of being held responsible, along with genuine mistakes that I have made eat away at my insides. I have absolutely no idea as to how to deal with this ‘guilt’.
No idea what-so-ever.