Everyone has ‘triggers’
If we’re talking about my depressions
which we are
then I have to admit that the second worst ‘trigger’ I have
for my depressions is
I grew up in a situation that was the opposite of affluent,
with a Mum who worked bloody hard,
and still always struggled to make ends meet.
And although I have had long periods without money
like the last 6 years
I have had periods where I was
– what I considered –
This past month
that wealth has been destabilised
and my depression has been spiralling out of control.
I am trying ever so hard to be brave
I really am !!!
But it’s fucking difficult.
Sometimes I wish I could become a hermit on a piece of property out bush,
and never have to be a part of this cruel and savage, ‘civilisation’.
I know I am being a sooky lala.
It happens !