Today Eden commented on the importance of stretching your coping mechanisms, and just opening up. Inviting eye contact, speaking to strangers, asking questions, saying “yes” to an invitation to share a meal.
I know she was talking abut herself (sorry – slightly redundant statement!) but she may as well have been talking about me.
Because I have changed so dramatically in my life, that where once I regularly use to ‘invite friendships’, I now actively dissuade them. I just cannot risk hurting my heart one more time.
But Eden tells me I have to. Mrs Woogs shows me how to.
But I don’t want to!
Ultimately I question whether I will one day regret not having been braver, like Eden, and say to myself . . .
“I would have. I could have. I should have!”